He wants an enemy, he says, a betrayer. He wants one who will bring the wrath of Cambridge University down upon his head. He wants a Judas who will bring the wrath of the dons down upon his head.

He wants nothing more than to be handed over to the authorities. He wants nothing more than to be a case to be dealt with.

The horror: there is no one to condemn him. There is no one to tell him where he’s gone wrong. The horror: that he, in his misery, his sin, might be in the right.