To die of life, to die because there is no life: shouldn't that be possible?, he wonders. To die, simply to die, because life is unbearable: why isn't that possible?
To kill oneself - why is this move necessary?, he wonders. You would think that the will to die would be enough. That the desire to die should lead us straight to death. Isn't it the case that in certain cultures, merely to repeat the words 'I divorce you' three times is sufficient to bring about a divorce? So should it be with the words 'I renounce life', if they are said three times.
The will to take one's life: it asks too much, it demands too much, he says. You are weak, you have lost the measure of your strength - and now you have to strengthen yourself again? You have lain down you arms, thrown them aside - and now you have to take them up against yourself?
I renounce life, he says. I renounce life. I renounce life.